Wednesday, May 4, 2011

Where I've been......and where I'm going.... ;)

It seems like forever since I've written on here.  My life has changed so much since the beginning of this year.  I have been on such a wonderful journey, and realized this is not one that anyone can convince you to take, or one that anyone can take for you.  I have discovered that I am stronger than I ever thought I could be, and that I can do anything I set my mind too.  Those of you that know me, (in real life, not just through the computer) know that I've always had that attitude, but what you didn't know is that on the inside, I was a scared little kid. 
The last time I got on a scale before this journey began, I was 189 lbs., after that, I refused to get on the scale, but knowing that I out grew another pair of jeans, I'll wage I was closer to 200 lbs.  I couldn't go up the steps in my house without being out of breath.  I was exhausted all the time.  My allergies and asthma had taken over my lungs.  All I wanted to do was sit and sleep.  Not play with my babies, not walk with my dogs, not dance...which I love to do.  Something had to change. 
Finally, after a conversation, I realized, it was me believing the same things I had felt as a child, that I could never make anyone happy, or that no one would ever be proud of me, and decided, that's it...I need to find out how to make ME happy, and anyone that doesn't love me for who I am, and wants to put me down, needs to not be in my life, and after that moment....I was a different person.
This, is the girl that started this journey on January 6, 2011.
It was a struggle to make myself do anything, but luckily, I have some wonderful people around me, that listened, and told me to move my ass when I needed it.  The girl that kicks me around the gym, is some one you may know....Lisa from ToldUSo.  Whether or not she admits it, she is an amazing motivator and friend...(besides, she likes to see me in pain...lol!)  I started taking her spinning class, in fact the first time she had me on a bike, I lasted exactly 18 minutes, and then had to lay on the floor because I wasn't sure if I was going to pass out, or puke.  I also started running.  I used the couch to 5k program, and thought I was going to DIE after 30 seconds of running.... I used things I have learned from a friend named Julie about eating, and started keeping track of how many calories I was eating...which was scary at first... :)
Fast forward until today...this is me now....
If you go by the last weight I knew, I've lost over 20 lbs.  I can run over 3 miles, (4 if you tell me to run to Subway..lol)  I take spinning class for 45 minutes twice a week, I'm careful of what I eat, but I will not starve and there are things I won't give up, I will not ever be on a diet.  This is a change for life, not until I drop weight.  I don't take crazy weight loss pills, I will be HEALTHY, not skinny.  I will be strong, not a twig, and most of all, I am happier. 
I will run my first 5k on May 21st, and another in September, then I'd like to train for a 10k, and then a half marathon... o and for the first time in my life...I have the coolest muscles in my calves...lol!!
So if you've wondered where I've been...now you know....and if you see me running down the road...please don't splash me with the puddles!! 
My shop will also be under going some changes.  I've been busy making candles and new items, along with working on the Relay for Life quilt.  I've started getting donations again this year for our live auction, and hope to share all of those items with you guys soon!!
hugs!
heather

17 comments:

JJ said...

Congratulations! I think we started our weight loss journeys around the same time! I, too, am down about 20lbs and I am excited to have made the life change! Congrats again!

Jen

www.finallylovingme.wordpress.com

Tolduso said...

You are looking great...high five and throwing confetti....

Set your goals and keep reaching for them...

Glad you found yourself again...

huggs..

Tiffany K. said...

You go girl!! I'm proud of you :)

Amanda said...

Keep it up!! I am proud of you and your accomplishment. You look great keep up the great work. Again you look awesome one hot momma!!!

Barbra said...

Wow...great job! I'll be it feels like a million$$$!

Valerie's Creative Studio said...

Good on you girl! It takes a lot of energy and motivation and a great friend to help get you going.
Best Wishes

Robyn said...

Wow, way to go, congratulations, I have lost 28lbs over 9 months but it sounds like you are doing it the healthier way still haven't made time for exercise that is next on the agenda....lol
Keep up the good work!!
Robyn

Robyn said...

wow!! way to go, excercise is next on my agenda...lol
thanks for the great motivation
keep up the great work!!

Aprons by MeMe said...

You ROCK!! I am SEW proud of you!! You look Amazing!! And are my Inspiration!! Congrats to you and "Thank You"!!! ♥ Ya

Eileen said...

Heather, you are my sunshine! You have done great and you look great. Congrats on all of your successes! Hugs!

HancoxHomestead said...

Loved reading this and seeing the pics! Look at you now you sexy mama!! Well done~waving pom poms!

trusk4u said...

Wow congratulations! Not only for the new lifestyle weight loss, but for making yourself happy! So many of us Moms (old and not so old)are in that same boat of making everyone else happy and it takes real courage to step up and do it for ourselves!

Kat said...

Hi I just dropped by your blog and just wanted to say well done and don't give it up : ) You've done a very good journey and now it will only go better and easier! Admire your determination!

Raige Creations said...

that is so great how you made up your mid and then followed through! Congrats. Losing that much is such an accomplishment. Keep it up!
Your story motivates me...my knees can't handle running, but walking - yes. you are an inspiration.

.alana. said...

good luck on your 5k! :)

Sarah Jones said...

Heather this is completely awesome and you're a total inspiration! I decided on May 17th that I was going to walk a mile (at least) every day and I will not make excuses of why I couldn't or wouldn't. I'm going to keep pushing myself because I definitely want to be healthier! I am just like you... no one can tell me do to it. no one can do it for me! It's gotta be me! I've lost 5 pounds so far and I don't intend to quit! Thank you for blogging this. You look amazing!

CHEERS to your success!!

Cecismommy1 said...

I think this is great! I started the same kind of changes and I've lost about 20 lbs since January also! Way to go!!!